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Lesley Darling posted an update
Michael’s coaching yesterday really helped me to see what I was busy doing with the particular flavour of fear I’d chosen as a problem – procrastination.
It was a struggle at first to hear Michael call this wisdom, nope this is me avoiding fear by helping other people instead of getting on with what I’m meant to do.
I’ve allowed the knowing to permeate me after it landed right in the middle of my chest yesterday. I felt it more than understood it.
Something I had been procrastinating about has dissolved. Another thing I was avoiding turned out to be a very bad idea. One of the things I did to procrastinate turned out to be a wonderful thing.
Oh, when I look back I can see the wisdom. I’m laughing and crying at the same time!?🙃
Markus Conrad and Marion von Tilzer7 Comments-
Dear Lesley, so can relate to procrastination!!! OMG…. just walking around with ‘i have to finish this, but oh, my house looks so messy, really needs cleaning; oh, the plants, what about the shelf – needs some tidying; forgot to email ….’ and so on…. How is your project going? Really love your idea. Have a great day! ❤
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Ah yes, when I decide it’s time to clean the skirting boards/baseboards then I know I am avoiding something. It’s a different sort of cleaning to the I want to completely clear off and clean my desk because I want to start a new project!
I had a massive shift in thinking initiated by Michael’s coaching on Friday. I have had a headache for 4 days which I think is some serious rewiring going on. Lots of emotions, strangely the ones I tend not to express so much, anger, disappointment, sadness and frustration all very much on the surface over the weekend. It was a good job we were focusing on self-care!I’m doodling with my project, nothing linear, which is totally new to me. Starting lots of things and then stopping and starting something else, then going back to what I was doing. I think I am trying to flow with it without overthinking trying to flow! It seems to be working because when I get a moment of clarity it really feels obvious and I don’t then start second-guessing myself.
Thanks for asking Marion, it’s important to maintain the idea of it not just being ‘my secret project’ which would be fine to procrastinate over and never achieve! Enjoy your day too. I am really appreciating your art and how your daughter is involved with what you’re doing with CTI 😍-
❤ Love, how you say, ‘when I decide it’s time to clean the baseboards, etc I know I am avoiding something!!!’ – wonderful to start from the back to the front – are you also doing another course with Michael? Sounds like you’re on to something – wonderful – lovely to meet & read you! Have a great day. xx
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Yes Marion, he’s running a 3-week intensive on fear, ‘Fearless Living’. We have a 1-hour coaching call M-F and I asked about how to get a handle on procrastination. I know it’s how I am expressing fear about doing something but as it’s not visceral and in my face fear (which I know how to handle) I wasn’t sure how to ‘deal with it’. He pointed out that I don’t need to do anything with fear, it’s made of thought, doesn’t matter what flavour it is unless it’s ‘clear and present danger’ then I can just allow it to be what it is. He also pointed out that what I call procrastination he could call wisdom! WOW!!! When I looked back I saw how true that was. Life-changing shift in thinking, hence the massive 4-day headache. I think my brain is busy re-evaluating 80% of my neural pathways 🤣
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Wow – that sounds amazing. Curious to hear how procrastination is wisdom – beautiful to look at it in such radical new way! I can totally understand that things in your head are re-organising things! Wonderful.
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I did three things on Friday that were examples of procrastination, I was avoiding doing some things. Or you could say instead of doing the thing I thought I should do I followed wisdom and did something else.
One thing I avoided doing turned out to be a very bad idea – wisdom had me do something else instead of pushing through and doing it.
Another thing turned out to not be a thing, it disappeared so I wouldn’t have achieved anything by doing that instead of what wisdom directed me to – polishing all the wooden furniture in the dining room – at least now the dining room is gleaming so that was productive time.
The final thing I did to procrastinate was to help someone else with their project. I enjoyed it so much, it helped me clarify something about my own project. So again I gained more than if I’d carried on with what I ‘should’ be doing. Permission to procrastinate 🎉-
Wow, Lesley, looking from that angle it all sounds really amazing! Thank you so much for sharing. ❤
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