• 3 G’s moment nothing to do with the CTI project but everything to do with this program and the Fearless Living Program.

      Lunchtime conversation around what 17-year-old daughter will do next. Son has had an appallingly bad introduction to University – strikes and then Covid. Is the debt worth it? He had to go to Uni because he’s studying neuroscience and you can’t do that yourself.

      Our daughter is a talented artist, would she learn enough at University to warrant that debt? Currently, Covid means she’s doing her Art A level lessons online, which is nonsense, you can’t do these practical things on a Microsoft Teams call. What’s really happening is she’s teaching herself by doing which is what she’s done since she was able to walk.

      We discussed alternatives to learning how to be an independent adult and improving her skills. There are lots of options, none ruled out by fear of the unknown or what’s the RIGHT thing to do, what we SHOULD do.

      Leftfield idea “we could move to Scotland”, from Suffolk. My parents are in their 80’s, “we could get a bigger house and move them in with us!” I’d have refused a week ago, today I was all about wondering about the possibility. Yes, it made me gasp, grin and giggle. Instead of finding a dozen reasons why we couldn’t, I kept it in the conversation as a let’s see what unfolds over the next year. My daughter is in love with Scotland and my husband feels at home there too. I’ve always said no – too cold and wet – I grew up in Manchester and had my fill.

      What’s shifted? Thinking I can predict the future or thinking cold and wet can affect how I feel.

      That is not the Lesley that joined this course in January, I have already become someone different. Giggling again with tears at the same time.

      Anything is possible in my life! That chain is longer for sure, I don’t know how far it stretches from its anchor point now, but I certainly feel free to roam.

      Marion von Tilzer
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      • Hello Lesley! Your post brought tears to my eyes – so beautiful! Talking about seeing the future unfold in front of our eyes, – through our eyes – painted with the brush of Bliss! Love it. Have a great day ❤

        • Marion, thank you so much for telling me that! This crazy project of mine seems to be heading in the direction of using my words and life experience to inform, entertain or connect with others (women with a breast cancer diagnosis). 

          Just knowing something I wrote brought tears of connection/recognition to your eyes means I am on the right track. 

          In the first week, when Lynne asked me to narrow down when I would know I had achieved something – I said I’d be happy with one comment. I feel I have that already! 

          I’m inspired to keep going, writing in my own voice, sharing how I am seeing my life unfold. 

          Thanks to your comment I will be considering it to be painted with the brush of Bliss, that makes me grin from ear to ear! 😊